College Experience

 I was heading to school this morning listening to "That's Alright Mama" by Elvis Presley when the whole rock n roll blues hit me. It hit me enough to want to turn on Johnny Cash and listen to "Ring of Fire". Without even knowing until later today, it would have been his 86th birthday. This year in September will mark 15 years since his death. I thought it would be best to remember him on his birthday and considering fate had me listening to his songs early in the morning. It is also a great coincidence to think considering both Johnny Cash and Elvis have big impacts in Nashville, Tennessee, with Cash having his own museum there. Johnny Cash was born February, 26 1932 and became a singer-songwriter and guitarist. He had a nice blend of rock, country, and blues to which everyone enjoyed. Cash was able to sell over 90 million records in his lifetime. Despite his quick legacy and fortune, he cared deeply for his second wife June Carter and because of this strong b...

Dolores, the lead singer of the 90's Irish alternative rock band The Cranberries, unexpectedly died on January 15, 2018 at 46 years old. This hit home with every fan considerably, considering she was such a warrior and strong woman figure to me and many others. Her voice was one of a kind, had a soft Irish accent, and couldn't be replaced by any other. Whilst going through depression and anorexia during her prime years, she still managed to write songs that hit the top ten charts and her albums went multi-platinum. The Cranberries in total sold over 40 million albums worldwide. According to Billboard, the day after her death, The Cranberries music sales grew 11,094% compared to the day before with their catalog of albums selling over 9,000 and over 35,000 digitally downloaded songs. Obviously, many people were struck with shock and decided to get their music in remembrance. There is a lot of talk about the unique style of the band and some describe the music as "dream...

You can not be a true rock and roll fan if you haven't heard of the legendary Ozzy Osbourne or Black Sabbath. In the latest news from the Rolling Stones, they announced that Ozzy is going to do his last world tour ever, called "No More Tours 2", this year. This is a huge, bittersweet step in his long-going career, because he is 70 years old. Ozzy also told the Rolling Stones that he is not retiring from music and performing, but he just wants to be close to home and continue small gigs. Ozzy has been going solo for almost 40 years since he was kicked out of the band Black Sabbath but to no avail still managed to pave the way for rock music. Up until his start as lead singer with Black Sabbath in the early 70's, rock music never had a "heavy" feel or as some might say "dark" undertone. It was the beginning of what we now know as the genre of heavy metal and songs like "Paranoid", "Iron Man", and "War Pigs" changed the ...

I have noticed that a lot of my friends and I have found out the reality of the college experience. I have only been through a semester so maybe I will change my current views. College is hard work and none of that is shown to us through the media or movies. There was a little superficial part of me that thought by now that I would have a lot a friends, a lesser work load, and go out to parties more as well as live the pleasures of life more. Even in the conversations with my high school college counselor, college was made to seem glamorous. At the moment I am consumed with tests and studying and it is a full time job. I don't go to parties, I never even went to one in high school. I do not have a incoming flow of friends. I am not living in a romantic movie where I find a lover and he becomes my husband. If we put aside the major cliches, there is still major misconceptions that no one seems to strike down. No one talks about how to deal with becoming an adult, how to manage stre...

I do not know why I am feeling better all around this month. Things just seem right. I am not as stressed, down at myself, and have been talking more. I am ready for this year to end and start fresh because it has been a rough year for me. That also means that next year is going to be really great because life works out in my favor like that. A really tough year followed by a really amazing year. I have been more productive with college work and staying on top of stuff. I have slowed down on working out at the gym, but I feel like I make it up with all the other stuff I get done. Slowly but surely I am actually getting small things done, unlike last month where I couldn't even focus. I am worried about next semester and my following college years though because I have really high and low months and my life has not been stagnant like I want. I still don't know how people make friends in college. The friends I have made weren't necessarily brought on by me, they just  were f...

College has made me not get ready for the last couple months. I wake up in the morning and I am left with ten minutes to get ready. In high school, I used to be able to get up an hour beforehand and do my makeup and look fine with my clothes. But these last few months, I just throw on sweatpants, wear no makeup, and pray that my clothes are clean. I am down to the bare minimum. I don't even get ready on the weekends anymore cause I can't manage my time for it. I feel like I don't have any time for it. I throw on what I got and just go about my day. I think the down side is that I am starting to hate how I look because I don't have any other clothes than t shirts and jeans. I feel like people look at me different cause I have my light eyebrows, blonde hair, and dark circles. I alienated or like a complete toehead because not a lot of people look like me. I feel like I have been walking around looking like a bum. I want to wear new clothes and look like a "prepared...

I have come to accept that I struggle with anxiety. I never thought I would be that person with anxiety. I think that word gets tossed around too much, as well as too lightly, and that there is a stigma or a certain idea that people look towards when they hear the word. I believe that every persons anxiety is different, so it is hard to describe my own to others, but that doesn't mean it isn't there at all. I have better-off days and I have worse-off days. It is a struggle to manage it with school hearing advisers and people around me say "Just speak up and learn to express your own ideas". I wish it was that simple and easy cause I would have done it by now. I don't need anyone's pity. I am just sick of people telling me or giving me "helpful" quotes like "You can do it. You'll get through it". Yeah I will get through it, but that doesn't make my anxiety just disappear. I like observing people and things around me that I don't...