College Experience

I have noticed that a lot of my friends and I have found out the reality of the college experience. I have only been through a semester so maybe I will change my current views. College is hard work and none of that is shown to us through the media or movies. There was a little superficial part of me that thought by now that I would have a lot a friends, a lesser work load, and go out to parties more as well as live the pleasures of life more. Even in the conversations with my high school college counselor, college was made to seem glamorous. At the moment I am consumed with tests and studying and it is a full time job. I don't go to parties, I never even went to one in high school. I do not have a incoming flow of friends. I am not living in a romantic movie where I find a lover and he becomes my husband. If we put aside the major cliches, there is still major misconceptions that no one seems to strike down. No one talks about how to deal with becoming an adult, how to manage stre

I do not know why I am feeling better all around this month. Things just seem right. I am not as stressed, down at myself, and have been talking more. I am ready for this year to end and start fresh because it has been a rough year for me. That also means that next year is going to be really great because life works out in my favor like that. A really tough year followed by a really amazing year. I have been more productive with college work and staying on top of stuff. I have slowed down on working out at the gym, but I feel like I make it up with all the other stuff I get done. Slowly but surely I am actually getting small things done, unlike last month where I couldn't even focus. I am worried about next semester and my following college years though because I have really high and low months and my life has not been stagnant like I want. I still don't know how people make friends in college. The friends I have made weren't necessarily brought on by me, they just  were f

College has made me not get ready for the last couple months. I wake up in the morning and I am left with ten minutes to get ready. In high school, I used to be able to get up an hour beforehand and do my makeup and look fine with my clothes. But these last few months, I just throw on sweatpants, wear no makeup, and pray that my clothes are clean. I am down to the bare minimum. I don't even get ready on the weekends anymore cause I can't manage my time for it. I feel like I don't have any time for it. I throw on what I got and just go about my day. I think the down side is that I am starting to hate how I look because I don't have any other clothes than t shirts and jeans. I feel like people look at me different cause I have my light eyebrows, blonde hair, and dark circles. I alienated or like a complete toehead because not a lot of people look like me. I feel like I have been walking around looking like a bum. I want to wear new clothes and look like a "prepared&